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Old 03-04-2024, 06:55 PM
Maisy Maisy is offline
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Somebody does something horrible to you, like for example I had someone tell a whole group of people I did something I did not do. This resulted in this whole group hating me. It was a total lie. But this person does this a lot. She has ruined a lot of people's lives in huge ways over decades, a very long time. One person became homeless and lost her marriage and lost her job due to things this woman did. Lies she made up. Others I know had far worse happen to them due to her activities. Amazingly, she is not aware she is doing such things. She thinks she is a great spiritual being. That's why I call her a toxic "person." I see "person" as the total of what one is. True self + ego. (false self mind and so on.) She leaves a wake of suffering in a lot of persons she encounters. Ruining others lives. She is very delusional. I called her on the phone a few times and she denies everything and says she has no memories of such things she did and said. Her thought's and mind are built in such a way she does not perceive things as they are. Nor can she.

She considers herself spiritually superior to others and has a very high authority position in a religious group. She publicly meditates everyday for hours. Add that with her brains false delusional patterns or habits built on non-sense she believes as truth and it is a toxic mess. She ruins lives.

Forgiving her in some mental way I think is inferior to seeing and understanding clearly what she is and how she operates. In the same way a bear will take your food if you leave it out at a camping spot. It's who she is as a person, as an ego. She makes up negatives in her mind about others and believes them to be absolute objective truths. For example say you had a lunch date with her then you got really sick for an simple example. In this example, you call her and tell her you are too sick to come and are throwing up etc. In her mind she would assume you are lying and in fact are not coming because you hate her and then would spend all day calling all your mutual friends telling them you are lying about being sick and she would make up some proof that never happened. But she would believe it happened in some weird way. Delusion. Like she may be out driving, think she sees you somewhere when it's not you etc. and use this in her lie that you are not sick. She is a very toxic person or ego. The totality of what she is, including her real self and nature added to the body's mind and brain etc is one toxic mess.

But I don't hate her and am not angry with her and am not holding on to anything like that. I simply cut her out of my life the best I could. Like a rattlesnake. I don't hate them. I am not angry with them. I simply avoid where they are. I don't think about them at all. I understand their nature and what they do.
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