Hello LeanBrahman1. I am so sorry for your loss and for the type of loss. My prayers go out to you. My father died suddenly as well although it from a complication at the hospital. I had a wonderful relationship with him and the way I got through it was to write to him. I still do. I started a "Dear Dad" file on my computer and whenever I feel like I need to tell him something I sit down at the computer and write to him. I hope this will help even a small bit in your healing. I always feel better after I write to him.