I remember after you died in 2003 i was so dissapointed, frustrated, and heartbroken in you. I would think to myself how come you couldnt just seek help instead of commiting suicide. But now i understand that you just couldnt take life anymore and i felt the same way for about 5 years. Then something happened i started to enjoy life again and i started being more commited to focusing on the positive things in life. I still miss you everyday but instead of me being sad that your gone im just happy i was able to spend 13 years with you. I will always cherish the memories we had and i will hold on to them dearly. Im not glad that your gone but im glad i was finally able to get over your death.