Im sorry for your Loss.I am a medium and know when someone is going to pass, but when my Husband passed it was so quick and unexpected.
That i felt numb which is similar to what you are feeling right now.
You are in grief and you can walk around in a trance.
When it sinks in you will grieve.
As you are aware of spirit you will know that your husband is fine. again i am sorry for you Loss.