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Originally Posted by Sleepies
I had an NDE in which I fell into ego death. The 'border' of the event was falling into darkness with green triangles everywhere. They died off one by one more rapidly until only one was left. I fell into the center of the triangle into darkness until I came to a red square that I saw as the ultimate death. I was very afraid. but after this I came to a reliving of my life in objective reality, infinite death, and then infinite ascension to the whiteness of what I believed to be god until I realized that I had been there for as long as I could stand, and that I would never reach the godhead. at that moment I fell back into my earthly body and woke up with my eyes wide open.
I'm wondering what the significance of these shapes meant. I researched them and found that my experience was the shape of the philosophers stone. I have been very curious ever since then because I had no relation to this or the spiritual at all before this event.
afterwards I could see my minds eye as a black sphere emanating blackness. Now its a speck of whiteness that sees my ego and my body trying to imitate that ego.
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It's funny that your experience is of the philosophers stone, something meant to give eternal life, and in my understanding we can only reach the Godhead through surrender of self. Self-sacrifice like Jesus on the cross or Buddha in renunciation.
They seem at odds. The eternal life found with Godhead comes from ego-death, the philosophers stone is said to give eternal life to the ego.