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Originally Posted by Evangeline 77
I keep hearing this recently but what if I've always been alone. Others joined me for a short time only.
My family was not loving, not close to each other, practically I grew up on my own, they only provided me with food and bed but no love.
In school, I didn't have friends, I was bullied for being fat, that was the main reason when someone talked to me and for a year nobody in my class talked to me.
The same thing happened at my first workplace, 2 older women got angry at me for no reason and they stopped talking to me( it was a good thing though)
I never fit in, the people I thought they liked me, they were only around me until they got what they wanted then they disappeared, others just spent time with me when I asked otherwise they didn't care.
I had enough of this and I just stopped talking so you can guess, now I'm completely on my own, only talking to my brother sometimes.
I have never been in love and have trouble attracting men. It's like I'm invisible for them.
It's not even that I'm attracting negative people in my life. I'm attracting hardly anybody.
What can be wrong with my vibe? Any thoughts would be appreciated as I'm in the dark here and I want to do something. Thank you!!!!
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Sometimes we are born into the "wrong tribe" and this establishes the whole "bad vibe" to start with.
We can either see that as a punishment or as an opportunity for spiritual growth...but that is mostly in hindsight. I have been through what you have experienced, but not in exactly the same way.
I am not sure whether you "choose" your parents as part of a "soul contract" or something...I don't know about those things.
All I know is that I cannot change the past, but what I CAN do is look for the tribe I would have chosen to "belong to" and if you hide in a cave, your "tribe" ain't gonna come looking for you, isn't it?
Instead of "feeling lonely", what about doing things you find pleasurable with others who feel likewise? Sometimes we are our own "tribe" looking for itself...looking for a mirror to be reflected in as parts of a greater whole.
It becomes easier to let the past go when you, as a "creator" start with the new "creating".
Listening to Binaural beats and solfeggio frequencies are helping me right now. Also, I enjoy Matt Kahn's "All for Love" series and getting into Qi Gong.
I still need to learn how to "socialise' a bit more and not get too attached/enmeshed in this world and not let it "get to me" but that is still a work in progress.