Thank you for sharing ketzer.
I don’t know what for life I’m going to have of course. The video you added might be something interesting in this case. I can see how it might apply. However I feel like external forces are keeping me stuck. So Idk. I’ll just grow old I guess. Until I see hope. And at the same time my environment will probably keep me alive and try to keep me growing. Because I do develop, even though in my own way