Originally Posted by Shivani Devi

About this..and about hypnagogic states...and all that stuff.

I also have a problem with chronic loss of motivation and purpose in life, yet all of the motivational speeches on YouTube just weren't doing it for me.

So, I went into a deep trance...a VERY deep trance...and when I go under, it is reminiscent of the Tibetan Yogis who can be buried for days...yeah, I can so do that..slow my breathing down to 2-3 breaths per minute? Slow my heart rate down to 20 beats per minute? Go into full hibernation mode? Easy peasy.

Problem is that each time I go into "shutdown" it gets harder and harder to snap out of it because the temptation to stop resisting the will to live just becomes too great..yet, I don't feel like I am ready to die yet...then God says "NOBODY is ever ready to die when their time comes" well, that was a cold, sobering yet comforting thought.

So then, the Lord asked me..."why should I let you live? and do you honestly believe that choice is yours to make?"

Yeah, so the God I worship is a pretty tough customer...He has had to be like that with me.

Well, I tried to think about all the things that I could be doing with my life that I wasn't already NOT doing and do you think I could find one? Heck, I don't even have a damn 'bucket list'.

God just laughed and said one word..."gratitude". He went on to say that if I really wanted to live, then I should at least be grateful for every second that I AM alive because once you are dead, it's too late for that.

So, I guess you are motivated to eat...to breathe and one doesn't quite understand the breathing they take for granted until they suffer with sleep apnea and need to be hooked up to a CPAP machine... that's what one gets from constant immersions in samadhi where the body just forgets to breathe...

So, there is nothing like motivation when the Grim Reaper comes knocking and goes "what would you do with your life if I gave you one more chance at living it?" and everything I could ever say is met with "well, you haven't done that yet, so what makes me think you are ever gonna do it?"

Nobody is gonna stand behind you cracking the whip.

There are two types of people...those who need to feel like doing something before they do it and those who need to do something before they feel like doing it and it is difficult to transition from one to the other and in the end, necessity becomes the only motivating factor because I feel sure you would run out of your house if it were on fire...and as stupid as it sounds, the "survival instinct" needs to be applied to everything you have ever wanted to do, thought about doing etc

It is the only way to bust chronic amotivation syndrome until "comfort zones" don't exist anymore and the habitual brain becomes rewired into a new neuroplasticity network...neurons that fire together, wire together...so just do something every day that you wouldn't normally do every other day - like walking a different route to work...eat dessert before the main meal...turn your shower down by 5 degrees...nothing speeds up the brain more than having a cold shower (just ask Wim Hoff) the motivation then, of course, is to dry your body very briskly and get dressed ASAP. LOL

I am only on my third day into this...I will keep you all informed of how I go.