Thank you all for your replies, I'm really struggling today, the evenings are the worst. I can't eat and am living on coffee. The strength my Dad taught me is not here and I need it most now, because I'm so scared of losing him in this life and so quickly. Last week everything was ok, today, it's all dark.
I know my Dad will be going to a better place. I will look for signs. My Daughter said to me last night, that she will be long for white feathers and whenever she gets one she will put it in a jar to keep. I just wish I was there to hold his hand as he passes, but I can't.
I just went this all to have been a bad dream and I will wake up and he will be here...but that's not going to happen :(
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