Hi Sparrow,
I did in fact do the 10 (well 9) belief chart and i discovered that i am an easily manipulated person. Everything i traced back all came from things I've seen in the media and what others have led me to believe. Because of this, i have been the type of person that's afraid of the world and i haven't really enjoyed living yet.
I do neglect myself so much, maybe because i have low self worth. If i see it as me against the world, i normally let the world win. Because of these beliefs i have fed myself, and how i think the world views me, it has defiantly been a strong factor in why i think suicidal. As of right now, i just don't have any self worth and i have fear issues.
I wish i was stronger and able to have a back bone. I wish i wasn't easily persuade into believing what others want me to believe. I'm not saying everything on my chart was false, i just think i let it affect me way too much, sadly.
Even if the entire world hated me, i shouldn't let it affect me, right?
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