[blossomingsoull97]

I really want to get rid of all this weight. I feel so icky and get annoyed at myself sometimes for being so fat. Everyone calls me fat at home and I just really want to let it all go. I know this isn't really spiritual but how do I do this. I have been adding changes to my diet but I completely want to change what I eat and do on a daily basis. I get this urge to exercise but have you ever felt this block in the way. This block just doesn't seem to leave me. It feels very heavy and i’m not sure what it is. I think all this weight might be emotional because I started gaining it when I was around 9 and during that time I went through really horrible stuff. I’m going to try tai chi because I've heard it's really good for weight loss and watching what you eat. Some days I just binge eat anything in front of me then afterwards I feel so tired and even more annoyed at myself. I truly do want to let this all go. I just feel really lost and I know this is difficult for me cause before this spiritual awakening, every year, I would lose this weight and I would but I would gain it all back after a few months. I've been drinking a lot more water now and including more fruits into my diet by drinking smoothies. I would really appreciate it if someone could help me or advise me please