[CcolTonS7]

I was at a drum circle tonight for a celebration of the flower moon. I brought drums with me this time. The times before I didn't have anything to drum with, instead I would try to get lost in the music and let my energy flow. I always felt this strange sensation taking over me, an energy inside me that would make me shake a little.

I felt awkward though, I wasn't dancing, I was jolting. This time I brought drums and figured I would put that energy to my hands and go with the beat.

I'm not very good at drums, but my drum was small enough that it didn't matter.

When I felt that state coming I didn't fight it

The first wave was free flow- my hands were in the rhythm, making their own rhythm, I could hear it, I could feel it in my chest. My eyes closed I could see the glow of the fire and drums filling the darkness surrounding me.

The second wave was listening, observing. I saw and smiled at the people dancing around the fire. Then I was nuetral, going with the rhythm.

Then I felt it coming on. In my face. My brows began to twitch, my eyes were shut and twitching uncontrollably.

Lights flashed with my eyes closed, yellow swirls of color we're crossing my vision, in a golden, shimmering way.

As this was happening, I heard someone say "that's some African ****" and they threw my hat at me, after throwing something else at me.

It was a minor disturbance, I was still going when--out of my control--i smirked at them as I kept going, like a "haha" grin, dare I say evil?

I don't like the grin because I feel like it wasn't my grin.
It was weird, then I kept going.

Until I calmed down. When the music calmed down.

So I get the trance thing, sort of.

Can anyone please help me understand what I experienced?
I just went with what I was feeling and that's what happened