Hi again Autums_Moon.

As i am still learning i can only give you what i have come to know and this includes within (inner guidance). You can talk with me at anytime if you need someone to unload. I find this helps. I have keept a lot of this in due to lack of trust in myself and others. This is a big lesson i am learning at this current time. What hinders my growth is resistance. My focus is not in tune because i refuse to let go. SC is a strong link but not what i need to depend on for self awareness. SC unknowingly has helped with direction and in so helped himself even if my earthly mind and emotions do not like the direction...it is for a reason. My masculine and feminine energies are not in balance and this is obvious due to the roller coaster ride. All of my soul links feel this and until there is balance the harmony will be off. When the soul alignment is reached then celebrations...onto the next chapter.
So i say....trust. You will open up when it feels right.