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haha @ Perfection.... I'm sure chasing tail and could of been what it was. I recently surrendered my lust for women as just objects of sex in order to be a better person for that someone special.
I realized it was a habit of checking out what a lady's endowments were and that it wasn't right to look at them this way. I respect women for who they are don't get me wrong but I was a horny toad. I use to have a problem having meaning less sex so I made my self slightly perverted in that sense so that I would be able to enjoy meaningless sex. I didn't want that anymore so I gave it up. I have also been trying to use my sexual energies in a constructive way so this has been an on going thing for about 6 or 7 months id say. That means no porn either haha...
Anyways I am a being of nature and have dedicated my life to nature.. not entirely but a portion of it is for earth. I have been seeing animals in a different light and animals in my waking life have been looking at me strangely. Like they know something about me but still aren't too sure about me. Plus my fae friends. I don't think that the cougar and the bear were objects of warning. I think a simple cougar could of been enough but it was white... which implies something else or deeper? The cougar came out of the apartment and its body language implies maybe it was just going for a walk.. haha I am really good at reading emotions of animals but lol who knows I have never encountered a cougar face to face hahah... the bear on the other hand... his roar did not unsettle the other animals so maybe it was just something to grab my attention but I do think it stands for something in the future...
Ahh... but I was planning on revealing myself to her in my last letter to her and after this dream I meditated on it and looked at all the signs and it was kinda like I didn't believe in myself. I was juggling with the whole idea of what if she thought it was someone else and when she saw me she would she feel mislead. So after that meditation I felt it would be better to go ahead and reveal myself in person instead of through the letter. It would also be less romantic to do so in a letter and I would probably being going through a roller coaster or regretting later that I did not do so in person.
lol.....smh... love..
:) Thanks for reading and helping out!
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