Wow Eve that is pretty heavy stuff and really only answers you can find for yourself. I will tell you from personal experience that real love never dies. It is possible to be with someone again after many years and to be happy but it comes with its complication too. I tried it many times with the same person and even though that love will always be there and strong, people change. Going back, you often think you are going back to the same thing again or the same person but over time they have grown and changed. We might not have the same things in common anymore and the things we did have in common might have changed and followed new paths. I suggest going very slowly before reeking havoc on everything in your life. This could just be a lesson learned and mean nothing more. Best Wishes and Pray on it!!