Alleigh, I can sympathize with you. I lost my Aunt in the same violent way. On my birthday 1.5 years ago. We were all in a state of disbelief and wonder. I went through a period where I was mad at her selfish behavior for doing this to our family, not long after the grieving part. Til this day, I wonder if her energy is stuck here in this house with us waiting to go to the light because it still effects our household here. She was living with us at the time. I'm sorry you had to go through that. That is really really hard to deal with and to understand why. It is so hard to vocalize an inward pain and sense of doom. Please feel free to release and not hold it in.. Maybe your Aunt didn't have someone to talk to, but you do. Sending healing thoughts of peace your way.