[Zoclora]

Hi every one. I am in need of advice.

You see I have been a solo practicing wiccan for many years and have went through many paths and gods. I have met so many amazing beings on my journey to discover my true path and my god and goddess of worship.
In the begging of this I only just formally met my guide who has been with me cents day one. But just getting into the Wiccan path with some knowledge already acquired, I look for a god and goddess to honour and worship. I have looked very well at all the different gods and goddesses. But none spoke out to me. Even while meditating on them non came. But one day I decided to look up the Egyptian gods and goddesses. The first one to pop out at me was Anubis. I instantly felt a connection with him. So I meditated on him and asked if he would like to be my god of worship. I turn he said no but his father may want to. I looked up his father to see it was Osiris and I agreed. His father also agreed and I asked his wife Isis to be my goddess mainly because,especially after reading their story, I only saw it fit. Next thing I knew the started to come to me in visions and dreams with gifts and one of them was me drinking from a bowl that Osiris presented to me in his throne room. I had so so many wonderful experiences and then I stared to view them more then just a god and goddess. I started to view them like family, a family in spirit that I feel always watches over me. But now came the time I wanted to devote my self to a god and goddess.
I know a lot of people say you could only devote your self to only one. But Osiris and Isis are underrate able in my mind. They are like atoms that you can not separate and if you do it's no longer the same. It's like a flower with out light. It could survive but only that. But when I did some meditation I felt like they wanted me to devote my self to Zeus. Now I see Zeus like a father. I see him as some one I can talk to about almost any thing. He's like a dear friend. He has blessed me and helped me many many times. But that's it. In my heart I feel like I should devote my self to Osiris and Isis but these attached feeling that I have is in the way.
After all I have said, what do you think I should do?
I also wish to add that I decided to do my devotional ritual to Osiris and Isis but I still have this hurt sort of feeling, not strong or bad, but still there.