Originally Posted by Greenslade

Well, Spirit might one day tap you on the shoulder and say "You know that encounter we had that day? Here's the reasons for it......" Whether that's actually going to happen or not I can't say for sure and definite, but my money's on it not happening. What good would an explanation do, really? Would you accept it or would you have more questions and doubts? It seems to me as though you would have even more doubts because in one sentence you say you got this from it, in the next you throw all of that into doubt again. You said you felt Love from the Spirit, not much after that you say you can't tell the difference between a positive and a negative Spirit. That seems to be a contradiction to me, if you don't mind me saying. Yes, Spirits can come across as positive and negative and do all sorts of things to mess around with your senses, but we're not talking every Spirit here. What we're talking about is that particular Spirit, for whom you felt Love and (if I get this right) felt Love in return for you. It's not about every Spirit and their cat, it's about this one, single Spirit. Deal with it on that basis, the next Spirit that comes along is a different Spirit. It's not the Spirit that's confusing here but what you're thinking. If Love is what you felt then it was Love. While there's no doubt some Spirits can 'fake that', it doesn't take a huge amount to see through that particular veil. True Love can't be faked.

You said - " guess you are right about Spirits being patient with us, because this Spirit that I am talking to you about was very patient with me . However, I always thought that negative spirits were the ones who often were impatient and would end up being pushy or aggressive ..." And you're still confused???? If it was a negative Spirit they'd have been long gone by now. Maybe they'll try a few times but they'd give up soon enough and move on to easier pickings.

I believe everyone picks up on energies, whether they are aware of it or not. The energies Spirit or other people can cause reactions in ourselves, sometimes we like or dislike a person for no apparent reason but I believe this is our human reaction to what we pick up from them. I reckon that if the Spirit was anything but good alarm bells would have gone off somewhere and you would probably have ran for the hills - and you's still be running. Sometimes a positive Spirit doesn't feel right, and that doesn't have to be a problem. It doesn't have to mean they're evil, it just means their energies don't resonate too well with yours. Being cautious is a good thing and Spirit will understand that. Being paranoid that because some Spirits are bad and that means every Spirit can be isn't too conducive to anything at all. How do I know it was a good Spirit? It might just be my perception and prone to not being right, but what I got was good energies from what you've written. And no, I hadn't forgotten that this person has passed over. In fact, it makes sense in light of what you've said. When they were 'alive' there would have been a deep connection, but now they're in Spirit they can twang those strings a bit more and you;re getting what you're getting now.

Seems to me that once again you've answered your own questions. When you were having the experience - between the colours of the rainbow - you felt "wholesome". If Spirituality is a part of you and you were in 'Spiritual mode'. it's little wonder you felt that way. then you came back into 'human mode', your brain kicks in and it all goes sideways on you. A medium friend of mine says she uses two heads. When things don't make sense to her human head, she puts on her Spiritual head and things suddenly get a whole lot clearer. You should try it one day, just don't expect that arm to come from the clouds and feed all the understanding straight into your brain.

So you think you didn't get much from the experience other than fear and confusion. If I may be so bold and beg to differ........... If fear and confusion is all you see from this experience then maybe that's all you'll ever see - or want to see. If that's how you want your Spiritual Journey to end then that's how it will end. However, I reckon there's something inside of you niggling away, like an itch you can't scratch. I doubt it'll be too long before you decide it's a place where you don't want to be and you'll want to go back there - if you don't already. I could say that the fear and confusion is an obstacle, but obstacles can be Journeys as well - if you choose to see them that way. It seems that behind the perceived obstacle there is a world where you would rather be, one where there is at least one single Soul that wants to connect with you on that level and who Loves you - and you Love them. Perhaps the point of the experience wasn't to give you some kind of personally-apocalyptic paradigm shift in your Spirituality, perhaps it was simply there to find out if you are going to use the feelings you had when you were with Spirit to get around that barrier. That is only for you to decide. You can use them if you choose to, and you've had a glimpse of what is waiting for you on the other side. This side fear and confusion, that side wholesome. The question is, do you want to stay on the side of fear and doubt or do you want to feel wholesome again?

And before you go there, if it felt real to you then was real :-)