[RavenWine]

SEMI-LONG POST AHEAD:

I've been debating about this subject for a while now, but I had come to the realization just a few weeks ago that I'm not 'me' anymore. I cannot identify with my first name any longer, and barely my last name, and when I look back on the memories of this body it just seems so...repelling, and I always think to myself 'who the f*** was that? That wasn't me'. This body used to belong to someone who did not know how to interact with others, who didn't know compassion or empathy. Something changed when they were in the sixth grade and I think that's when the change started happening? This body and mind (maybe it's mine now?) started having vivid dreams when there used to not be any dream recollection. This started happening towards the end of their sixth grade year, and just a few days ago after trying to remember any old memories, I cannot for the life of me remember anything from the 7th grade. I've looked at pictures supposedly from that year, I've looked at yearbooks, family photos, etc. and nothing clicks. It's just an entire year of black-out. And looking back at the childhood memories they seem so...incoherent. Like I was watching the body from above and everything seems so foggy. I remember clearly the dreams starting off with spirit guides, and eventually a series of dreams started with a man who I very seriously believe is my soul mate (and now, after reading definitions on this site, I feel like he might be my near-twin-flame? still having a difficult time grasping that). I think once I started dreaming more of him, the more coherent I became in this body. But it's just now occurring to me (8, almost 9 years later) that something must have happened that cause this switch.

I'm really sorry for the long post, but I need some guidance.

How do I determine whether or not I'm a walk-in?
Could my purpose here have anything to do with finding the man I believe to be my soulmate/near-twin-flame?

Any other advice?