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Sorry to be long in answer. Good to see your support, I really appreciate that so much.
Let me explain, took awhile to understand how entity acted, once I understood more what my entity terms is all about, I will not expose you with vulgarity. But kids safe terms instead, to be honest these true action is way too much to post here lest I get banned. :)
What I have is a entity good at mental control, trust me.
Basically what entity does is 2 things, two thing but same goal to attempt to break me, once I realized what entity's motive is all about, I'm much pretty past that part and intellectually knew and tired of entity attempts at breaking me. at all but honestly I'm real tired of entity antics. Second thing is my spiritual development is steadfastly totally blocked by entity's. Now second thing that necessitates prompt attention to expel entity like now is more serious problem is entity once in a month I experience severe stomach spasms for hours. Early on long ago entity used to give me hurt muscles via severe muscle spasms simple as a stretching out muscles with a yawn results in very sore muscle anywhere. I learned to be very careful about that part especially back. Annoying really.
Reality. I'm not scared off that easily, I've had been grown thick skinned now and had lot of respect for anyone who gone through this and everything even spiritual worlds due to my lot of reading on texts I can get my hands on.
Pudgenik, thank you for your offer of vat of axle grease! :) I included yours in my affirmations by listening to text via text to speech method just in case entity smothered me with wrong words if I say it myself just in case. Like I hinted at is I'm semi deaf since birth and understand vocal speech poorly. Entity learned to talk to me different way by mental messages mostly.
Let me explain what entity does:
Entity kept up constant mental pounding by shaking my mind on several tasks, imagine action movie where actors and things are being shaken in a big picture being shaken and props breaking apart make hard to concentrate to "see" what is going on with whole movie thing. Same thing with mental activity get rattled and I drop what I doing. Taboo mental activities: thinking, meditation, day dreaming. Also more importantly and worryingly is education learning, I plan to take a school again but this could be potentially a problem. Since I need this paper to open up more choices in future jobs. I have old school bucket load of excellent skills but hard to prove to potential employers via electronic employment resume submissions. All I have is high school diploma and did not finish college years ago.
Ok back to entity's method of mental punches:
But entity made this worse after smack me with an mind shocks and take over
like I call this an "mind" headlock fashion which is unable to move with action of thinking or speech is uttered sounded wrong till I stop what I am doing then control is released. If I think a thing, entity smoothly stole that thread of thought and not let me have nothing frozen in surprise empty handed. Think again, get mind slapped or more powerful mind "headlock".
Entity is also noisy via my ear drums, not letting me to enjoy listening to any sounds. And also uses my vocal cords like a radio speaker. When I am alone, try to voice a sound of words even not at entity at all, instantly mute. If I try, it's entity's sound instead of mine. Two weeks ago on Mother's day, was with my family at good restaurant saying "Thank you" to a waiter when served food which came out "Thank, Mom", family did not caught this one, I can tell was entity's doing as it partially grabbed my mind when I tried to forcefully say "-you", came out "-mom" instead. :( This happens all the time. If I call out "Mom!, and say friend's name". I would say "Bob! and say mom's friend name next. Grrr.
Crystals is not my salvation yet due to mental headlock too.
I can tell by entity's vibration around crystals like a sour coat around yummy treat, the major reason I cannot utilize the crystals properties yet.
Entity is also arrogant, talk backs also and always has last say on everything I do or say is "spanked" (via mind shock or sound of a "slap!") meaning "not supposed to do that" or basically a no to anything and entity likes mistakes, being mean, leave stuff where I dropped etc. I refuse to listen to entity's and apologized to anyone, clean up afterwards like drop a trash that failed to dunk into trash bin etc. And entity's word is sacred cow that I can not ignore which I kept ignoring. I kept telling entity to take a walk and entity refused to leave. Even I told entity about do you care or what about love? Etc. Entity just talks back like a bratty teen kids. Even I cannot say certain words like "no" at all and also "why" came out like "cry" or some words results in "swear word sound".
Cheers, stonecollector
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