I know I'm acting like an irrational idiot. I want to stop thinking about it so much but it always crops up in my mind. I think the reason why it always crops up is because it's the first time I've ever felt a spark and connection with something, and I didn't think it was possible for me. I just want to forget it so much :( I just wish I never met him. I could never add him on fb because it would just be too weird.