Your response was received I think
What I (the author) know is that this body has a typical way of reacting to positively confirm things that I do not really see. It is a particular sensation of blood flow. I have relied on this in challenging environments. The same type of response happened now when I read your response, so I take it to be some kind of positive confirmation.
Since the above diagram was constructed, I have improved on my understanding about where I stand and is experimenting further. I was thinking I got the above just a little wrong, but it may still be be more true to others.
My new understanding is displayed in another diagram below.
Here is text for it: The previous soul in this body left because it was done. Then I (a new soul) came together with the one who is "her" in the diagram above. I mistook it to be that I had been here all time and I was the same as all my memories, and that the female came to me to extract me. What this body felt as extraction, was actually the shift from the old soul to this new soul that I am. In the diagram, it is a pair of "he" and "her". It is this pair that has entered the body as the old soul left or is on its way to fully leave, (all steps are overlapping).
This makes sense to me for several reasons and solves some old inconsistencies in understanding. We (the new pair) are only left with clues in memory and what we experience right now, and has to work with that. When this body first started to sense a presence several months ago, it recognized it as a female person X. X invited another one who is the "her" in the diagram above, and we can call her female Y.
Strange was that Y was only in the background and did not interact much but only watching. This was perceived by the previous soul, and then one day Y totally left. It was no big deal as the the old soul in the body at that time was attached to X anyway and did not know why Y was there watching.
When the first female (X) came, there was a very particular inspiration foreign to this body but the inspiration made things very interesting in life. Then there was total forgetting and rejecting of all this and other things in life came in between.
Months later, suddenly, from nowhere Y comes back with a strong clear presence, and clearly alive by her own energy as the body/mind really was not very interested in creating anything like that, because it was busy. A day after or so, like a on-off switch, the mind knew "the strange inspiration is back" and the same life decisions where put in place again as the first time the inspiration came.
There is no trace left of X, and I am very attached to Y. I could never figure out why "I" was attached to first X like she was everything, and then equally attached to Y. It defied my intuitive idea of the twin experience. The answer is that X and Y where the twins of different souls. The old soul went away with his X. The new soul (the current I) came with female Y. I am more sure now Y does not extract me to let the guides run my body. We (the Y pair) have "landed on the ground" to go for our purpose.
I played with this idea and decided to do a diagram for it to work by the same principle of "solidifying" my conception in the mind. It may still not explain the whole truth and it may contain errors in my individual case, but I suspect this is like a supporting structure for the mind to inquiry deeper by thought and emotion and the rest.
It would be one soul exchange involving two souls, having their own accompanying partner souls. I think this new pair (us) may possibly be able to share equal presence even though the male (me) is at front mostly now. For instance, in one moment of 15-30 minutes, this body and mind reacted in the belief and experience that the female of the new pair was suddenly taking over at the front running the mind and body. Amazed, and confused, she then asked "who am I?", "where is he?", and she was then looking for the old male soul previously in this body, because this was at the time we believed I (the new male energy) was the old male soul. This misconception obviously was influences of the mind's old memories and beliefs. Also, the body and mind itself reacted against the female energy, maybe because it was accustomed to identify as male. We also suspect she maybe felt strange also. What emerged was a very female body language for example. This may tell us we are equal in presence even if by habit the male is in the body.
Here is a link to full size image:
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(still can not post clickable links because I have under 15 posts)
Here comes the diagram included in 800px width:
