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Originally Posted by Spirit Guide Sparrow

I appreciate this, that you have been so kind to share openly.

It is difficult to perceive the greatness of something when the larger picture of it is beyond your present vision. You can perceive an infinitesimal part of a larger process, which you identify as an event in time or an experience happening to you. This may often times identify with you as being of an unpleasant or painful nature. Do not despair, things are not actually happening to you, that is simply your human brain analysis fulfilling its role. Witness and seek to understand, but do not place ownership, for that energy shall become you.



This is because you have allowed perceived direction to foster expectation. You believe, if I follow these set of instructions for long enough I expect such and such to happen. I must try harder you say. And even though part of you actually fears being successful in what you seek you continue to harbour a vision for yourself, whilst frustrated that you still cannot seem to capture the prize of your aspirations. You wonder if there is something you are missing or something you should be doing; reaching out to your guides and voice of reason you grasp unsuccessfully to hidden answers to unattainable success.

I will give you a jewel of wisdom that very few comprehend. Failure does not exist. It cannot exist, for your will is the will of the Prime Creator and the guiding function of the multiverse. You cannot fail to get to where you want to be because you are already there. You simply presume, because you are approaching it from your human brain, that you must do ''a whole bunch of stuff'' in order to achieve something you have placed seemingly high above and beyond your reach. Your thoughts have become your own enemy to progress. Your spirit already has the wisdom to know how to do anything it so desires. Do not neglect your own spirit for the seemingly wise words and ways of another. For only your own spirit can take you to where you wish to be (your true Self).

There is no failure in simply being who you are. You cannot fail to be who and what you are. But you can invent a great many elaborate things that continue to persuade you of something you are not. You can invent a multitude of processes you say you need to undertake to be who and what you already are. Stop placing yourself in the consciousness and game of trying (which causes the experience of failing) and step into the consciousness of being (where you own the energy of causation). You cannot be successful in being something if you are too busy doing something.



You have been trying to duplicate past experiences and experiences you feel you are entitled to as part of spiritual progression. You wish to master energy and consciousness, and you have been attracted to personal abilities such as astral projection, feeling that such abilities will deliver you to your ultimate desire. I see that previous practices in your life have produced undesired consequences, as well as attracting nefarious gates of energy in your former naivety, which you now regret. Also you have had some successes in the past but have tried to force progress without really understanding what you were doing. This has created a layer of fear which remains in the resonance of memory. When you are trying to duplicate previous successes I perceive you are still holding onto aspects of consciousness that act as a heavy anchor, which are attributes of your human ego and persona. You have a mindset of trying to master spirituality for your own benefit and this will not work. You have to want to progress purely in service to others in a selfless state of consciousness where your personal ego no longer matters to you.

These abilities which human beings are so seduced by are merely a natural aspect of what all spirit can do, and have always been able to do. They will come and they will occur when you have become intricately close and connected to your own spirit. This is not to then say you must invent a hundred different ways and rituals of practice in order for you to connect with your spirit. You are already connected to your spirit, otherwise you would not be alive. You simply must own the awareness, the knowing, that, in fact, there is no separation between your human body, your mind, and your spirit. The illusion you are using to invent failure comes from your belief these are all separate from each other. This is because somebody told you they were separate, and you believed it as your truth. Let go of belief. Step into knowing.



No. Somebody else inspired you.

-Sparrow

I can both see and feel the wisdom of your words. In fact, I believe that I have done just as you described before... primarily to use the accepted notion of spiritual intuition about present and future events. This ability, while minor, was what allowed me to trust in this desired path for my life - and take the necessary steps to follow it. I do not only mean a spiritual path... but also the mundane path which I chose that might best suit me.

I remember the instances of "success", both good and bad, that I have seen in myself. The nefarious gate of energy... which I opened long ago, remains as a strange anomaly that I have never fully understood. If I couple the intent and state of being I used then with your words now, I can see why I was able to do it. While negative, it was in fact an act of service to a group of people. Since it was for them, I was detached and merely went through the motions of channeling power. I did not feel that I was grasping for anything; I was being what I needed to be for the task placed in front of me. I also see how I could use a similar approach for positive ends. This understanding doesn't make it an easy prospect... but the potential for it to become easier is greater.

When I tried to force progress, and had some success, I was doing part of this correctly, but I did not understand the origin of said success in the same way, at that time. I was both right and wrong, as really there is a very thin line between my understanding then and what I needed to understand. The main area of significance here is that I believed that the extreme difficulty was the source of success, and therefore I could not achieve those results in an easier way. But with this new understanding, there are a multitude of ways to be that might create the types of success I want, and not all of them are so taxing.

When I first communicated with certain powerful entities, I was told that my primary obstruction, with regards to what I want, is doubt. I can see how this is, if what you say regarding 'being' connects with that. If I doubt my being as a being of failure, then I create an existence of that. It is a difficult problem to avoid... but perhaps I can manage it. I understand the feeling I ought to have somewhat more clearly.

I also think that I understand where service to others plays a role in this. Perhaps the simplest way to describe it is with regards to my reality reflecting myself back to me, since I am actually a part of said reality. When I give, reality gives - when I take, reality takes. If I be what I need and give out of that, then the energy itself should also reflect that within myself. My physical experience will then conform to my spiritual manifestation as it is intertwined.

My only concern is with regards to those who hold great belief about themselves and yet do not appear to have any spiritual ability of consequence. Those who I might consider to potentially be 'delusional.' Perhaps it is merely that their will is not to experience what I seek, or that they are content with a normal physical life, albeit with grand imaginings applied. If that is so then there should be no conflict in understanding, only a conflict in how various people tend to apply desire (for the sake of my understanding about my own progress when considering what others have achieved.)

Thank you for your advice... I am not sure what I expected, but it wasn't a greater understanding. I did find one, though. I appreciate your service, and perhaps I will grow to provide a similar service (reliably) in time. :) For now, I will experiment with adapting my conscious state to a type of service that suits my alignment, and the needs I see. I will be a wellspring of what I want to see.

You are certainly a blessing.