[Sapphirez]

Interesting.. yes it seems most illness including mental derives from people not living according to their natural states or inherent natures. Society is basically designed to deviate us from the ways we're supposed to be living. but I think there is hope and I guess that although things may seem more bleak than ever now, we can still see the growing light and movements which facilitate great worthwhile change modifying the fake deprived ways we've been guided to live.

From a personal perspective to respond to some of the words said, as far as the sentiment of us not being able to "take a break and just sit down" I suppose that is so true, in ridiculous ways.. See I don't really have to 'do much' right now. I don't have to work, yet the pressure is there for me to make money because my fiance is having trouble supporting us.. but I do have a new daughter now nearing 15 months old to take care of every day. I mean honestly I don't even do all the housework but this baby does keep me busy and most of my free time is spent with her at arm's length, like me posting on this forum, which actually much of the things I do are done when I should be sleeping, so I sacrifice that for engaging in activities, as I'm sure most others do too..

but well my point is, I feel so guilty for not doing more, and if I just sit I feel like my fiance is glaring at me from afar disapproving - and he's even criticized me posting on this forum, the other day saying I could do this dumb survey penny earning time wasting thing instead of posting on forums when I reasoned I didn't even have much extra time if I even did want to waste hours making pennies on there.. it was insulting and I informed him that it's a spiritual forum I post on mostly and sorry he doesn't have that side of himself actualized now but it's important to me..

anyway again lol point being that even a person who has little responsibility or obligation, there is that insatiable pressure to be doing more and guilt and shame that pile up when we do things that we should be. I mean there are many wonderful personal, artistic and spiritual things I feel guilty and pressure about not doing too, from myself because I really want to do them, but separate from that is the weight of another person judging me for what I do and don't do.. and in cases like this, that person may see the good things we do as a waste of time or as frivolous, such as the case with my posting on the forum or anything online, when the main thing I do online is try to learn, teach and grow! So I've got to do productive spiritual things anyways, and hopefully many more soon, but there's pressure from myself to do them and pressure from outside to not do them lol.. I do wish I had more energy and ease to do more chores around the house etc and ideally I would do much more, but Idno at this point I need to do more enlightening things to restore myself to a better state so I am more able to do all the other things.. and overcome the traps of the mind and judgment outside that make me feel bad for just existing or trying to do important things that people don't think properly fall into the structures of mainstream obligations or even play/entertainment etc.. sorry this got extremely rambly. I'd add more but yeah lol