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Originally Posted by The Necromancer
So now you can see how nothing really applies to me in the 'normal' or what we call 'neurotypical' way of thinking. I totally exist in lateral thought and nothing follows a 'straight line' in my brain from cause to effect, means to end or subject to object because my mind doesn't work that way. I have no 'executive functioning' or 'theory of mind' whatsoever.
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I hear and feel (and so in a sense 'see') what you say is
true about yourself. Like any other ab'normality', I think such 'condition' may be related to (and so 'utilized') as either a 'blessing' or a 'curse'. By eloquently
sharing (colorfully
articulating and playful-loving-lovable 'demon'
demonstrating,
) the ins and outs of your ex-peer-iential condition, you are
enriching the lives of others, you have mine at least, so THANK YOU!
Quote:
Originally Posted by The Necromancer
All I know is the love I feel for a Hindu deity called Siva and tonight, a few hours ago, I made the re-connect until the energies rose up my spine and exploded into my brain with the force of a small supernova, filling my head with blinding light and now, my awareness is swimming in fluid Consciousness, I feel like I am walking on 6ft foam rubber, grinning like a Cheshire cat with tears streaming down my face..."Aum Namah Shivaya" turned into "main tumse pyar kartha hoon"...and that's the best mantra out there.
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I have
two thoughts in relation to this. Happily stay as you are and continue to engagingly relate to Life in celebratory fashion just as you
are being-doing (assuming your biosocial situation remains viable). Or 'seek' to 'change', in which case it is up to you (maybe with Siva's guidance and help) to decide how you'd 'like' to be more/different - what 'else' would you 'like' to ex-peer-ience and 'do' (i.e. ex-press)
if anything?, and then 'ask' and 'allow' Siva to 1-2-3-etc,-step
transform 'you' in whatever ways would lead the the 'best' result in such regard ... of course 'humbly'
accepting the possibility that there may be no 'better' way (in Siva's eyes at least) for you to be and continue to do.
I
of course will personally love and enjoy you just as much
either way, but I suspect that there may nothing that could be 'better' - more
lovefull and
joyfull - than being the "grinning like a Cheshire cat"! The important thing is for
you to be 'content' to be be-n-do
as 'you'
are being-n-doing. Whatever you decide and whichever way 'you' go, it occurs to me that things like 'normal' relationships may not be 'in the cards' for one as 'uniquely' you as you
are.
Just remember to always blow kisses - as the saying goes, "Your arms are too short to box with Siva."
Speaking of
maximally experiencing and expressing
Love and Joy fullness, you might enjoy checking out what I wrote the first chapter of my treatise: "What Jesus
Really Meant", which is available as a free pdf download from the 'Articles' page of my website.
Limitless Blessings, Girl-Woman-God child!