You're not alone when thinking of death, and the afterlife. It is the ultimate mystery that many of us wonder. I too think about it on a daily basis, but even as I wonder, I do not wish to end this journey of life. Not until I'm old and wrinkled anyways lol. Death is often perceived by many as the end of road. I heard a good quote from an underrated movie titled "The Fountain". "Death is the road to awe."

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Your English grammar is excellent, and might I say, it's better than most native English speakers.