I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Losing someone so important in our lives is never easy and the grief can often be overwhelming. I would have to agree with everything that has been said. You having the feelings of death before your mum passed could be pre cog recognition and you sensed it long before it happened. The feelings you continue to have really is about a rebirth after your prayer for a new way of living. You have shed your old skin and replaced it with a more spiritually aware being and sometimes we can even grieve that loss. Anytime you loss a part of yourself, whether good or bad, you can go through a process of letting go that feels like a death. Call it a death of the Ego, if you will. You will be in my prayers and I wish you all the best....

Light and Love!!