I don't see a good side to a bad rut for so many years, unless you trying to say it was a trail/lesson, but even if it was I still don't see what the lesson was, I was a burden to my love ones, and there's no lesson in that, I didn't want to be.
i'm no good at meditation, and its been so long, I just hope it don't take another 5 years or so to find out more. however I had another experience like this where I saw myself at 50 years old
50 years-
http://www.spiritualforums.com/vb/sh...angely+ happy