One thing I prefer not to think too much about is my life path. My life path is 22. According to my research, it means I am destined for great things. That frightens me, because I am doing far from great. How will I ever live up to that?
My entire life I have been struggling. As a child I was way too sensitive, still am, obviously, but I'm more self aware. I was terrified of everything. Now, in my early adulthood, I have been diagnosed with two mental disorders (including anxiety, what a surprise) and a sleeping disorder. I am honestly struggling so much to get through university. I am too far along to quit and start over. I have to finish it, but I get more tired every day.
2018 was a bad year, although it had some good moments. 2019 was awful.
Tomorrow is my 22nd birthday and in three days we will enter the year 2020.
That is quite a few 22's.
I guess I am just desperate for something good, but could these things mean that next year is finally going to be better? Will I finally find the strength to get my mental issues under control and finish university (I'm studying to become a teacher, by the way
)?
What do you think?
I just need something to believe in.