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We're having one of the greatest cold snaps with snow since I guess thirty years as well, and it has been said if it does continue on as it shows it is going to, one of the longest cold snaps we've had since a good eighty or ninety years..
Most full moons tend to bring shake ups.
I can't get work anymore in the industry I have been in for the last almost decade, I may have willed it. I wanted to go into another industry but I've let my fears stop me the past six years, and now that industry is dead. The whole reason why I wanted to get into it was because I wanted a challenge, and to be unionized, I'll stop there - I chose it over something else, that I am looking back into - which has still been going strong the last six years...
It feels like my life has fallen apart, and I can barely get full time work. I have 2 part time jobs that barely equate to 30 hours/week. I was told something else, and it's just not happening.
Than my knee went on me about a month ago, first time in my life. I dropped my phone 3 nights ago, and smashed the screen, which is a $400 fix, I've been waiting on my car to get better work - as a mistake was made on it last Aug by my dad, and it ended the engine, and it took him until late Dec to start to work on it, in which he found it is not so simple to fix. He got it running, but it doesn't always turn on, and he took it into mercedes to try to better help me out, but they told him the same thing, which apparently he'd forgotten and fixed another thing in the engine, so he doesn't have time, to do that job, which would take even more of his time, and money and he was going to get me some Winter tires, as the car is basically inoperable on these roads, but now he's not going to as he says he doesn't know if the car will even last, he just told me this last night. It is really upsetting because he fixed the wrong area, and it was his mistake that cost me 6 months of my life no vehicle - I had to give up so much forwardness in my life.
Astrology keeps saying a new cycle, but every time I miss out on the boat that I am supposed to take to start these new cycles, I am affected it seems in a worse way.
I chose to start seeing a man, that I didn't date long enough to get to know him, before investing emotions, and he is a Virgo Sun & Moon as well, and he has also had heartache after heartache - going through a divorce still - seeing his ex wife for the first time today, in almost a year since their traumatic split, hoping for a 50/50 on seeing his son - right now they're supervised visits at about $3k/month. Having to end the divorce with an arbitrator today. His trial was moved from the 5th to the 26th of the month - that's another story I'll end there. That has to do with the divorce.
Before and now my rational mind says get out. & to know to never date a man still only separated, and divorced for at LEAST two years, only if it was not a traumatic event, and I must know why, and if there are children - it's not for me. I don't want children, let alone someone else's, but I've tried to have compassion and learn the things the wise man says not to. lol
This full moon was in VIRGO. Energies can be felt during, before, and after, and now we've entered into what is it, a Pisces era? Until the next full moon?
I have manifested many a thing, and I will continue to manifest only what I truly want because I really need some good things and I am deserving. Maybe I have bad karma, and hence have felt like I deserved the hard times but for me the hard times, they don't end. I could just tell you my whole life story = rough things are never ending, but what I can say is I used to flip out with a lot of the things that go wrong, and now, I'm more relaxed about them, can't say however they don't affect me, they do. I'm tired. Really upsetting things, I still cannot handle. My brain and body just shut right down for a few days.
Just received an email back from an interview last night, saying they regret to inform me, I am not hired.
I just asked for an old job back, it is seasonal, but I didn't stay until the end of the season, as I thought my car was fixed, but hey it doesn't always start for me - this job is outside of the city, but what if I get out there and it just doesn't turn on, and I have two other jobs. I used to be blessed with having jobs all close together.
I just paid for insurance for the car this month at $209 on the 18th, and drove it for one day, and had asked to have the insurance billed on the first of the month every month after, but I've asked to have it cancelled, in which I still have yet to hear anything back.
If you want to know hard times - I don't think it's just this one moon. I think I am not following my path, and sometimes I wish my dad wasn't so stubborn TAURUS, and I don't know his other astrological influences, but really it doesn't matter, there are just too many other influences we get from others, we get from alignment, we get from guides, and stars. I can't move forward or anywhere, and the divine knows best? but continuing hardships, and why can't this car just be a good one. It's a smart car by the way, but it is difficult to work on, and it has so many specialty flaws that even THEY can't fix. I won't ever buy another ever again. Thought it was the deal of a lifetime, sporty, and it didn't work out right from the get go. I've almost had it for a year, my first car, in my mid thirties, and only driven it for SIX WEEKS. Like, Come on Universe! Really.
It's never ending. Sorry for my rant. I don't enjoy life. It just is. & it is just never ends.
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