The answer appears in the above.
Brahman is still the
only true reality (Satya), although it is not who/what "I" am on the level of existence within this material world and sense of it....all this is just a 'false reality' called
Mithya:
http://www.advaita.org.uk/discourses...ons/mithyA.htm
All I will ever be aware of, all I'll ever be able to connect with in the
dual sense, is the
Saguna aspect of Brahman, revealed to me as Lord Shiva (Mahadeva) fully representing and indicating the
Nirguna aspect of Brahman (Sadashiva/Bhairava), which is totally beyond a manifested awareness of
this mind or consciousness and thus it has nothing to do with what "I" am, even though I've had glimpses of it and immersions into it from time to time...yet "I" always remain distinct
from it, as a whole....it's
totally blissful, peaceful and joyous when it happens though! <3
https://www.chakras.net/yoga-princip...una-and-saguna
It is
very difficult to understand this and too complicated/complex for
another person to 'get it' really.
Good luck with trying though. =)