I have shared and swapped souls, among other more complicated matters regarding identity...etc before.

I have found that the main feature of sharing or swapping souls is a loss or gain of memories that you feel are not your own, and an influence on your outlook on life after having recognized those memories and perhaps consciously or subconsciously claimed them as your own.

I am in no position to judge or decide anything about you, but I will say that I have shared a lot of the misfortunes and events that you have experienced before and I understand how it can all change a person for good or for worse.