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Well, last week I went back to see my psychologist and we started the mindfulness training ..it didn't go so well.
She asked me to close my eyes and just observe my thoughts and to relate what I was observing as the observer.
The only thing I could say was "wait...who is observing the observer doing the observing?... no, scratch that..who is observing the observer who is observing the observer observing?...and does this thing EVER end?"
She goes "stick to only ONE observer...the one observing your thoughts"
I said "I cannot do that because the one observing my thoughts is still a thought in and of itself..."
So we did external mindfulness practices instead because my "inner consciousness" is like a black hole of pure non identified awareness and she has never encountered that before..
I am like "yeah, try and live with this and function normally..."
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