Routine?

Sounds mundane,tedious,bordering ocd,essentially and foremost programmed and programming by the system.

Imho.

Once upon a time when i entered the system to play my role as an actor(this is how i see it and like to describe it).

Essentially i'm not a non-conformist and i don't like rules,i LOVE freedom.

Anyhow,for the most part,i did non-conform and mostly through addiction.

I turned my life around and wanted to be a better man/person.

So thinking the system was righteous and good,i entered,for the next 12yrs i slaved and i achieved a lot.

But yeah got to a point,where i questioned 'is this all there is to life'.

I've come to where i am now,where there is no routine,the thought does my head in.

Well,being part of the system...that's the way how i see routine.

IF i had to label my life now and some 'routine',it would be 'just being' ie:no thought of time,no thought of what day it is,no thought that i had or should be doing something.

No thought period,no ill misalligned thought,no nothing nor feeling guilt that i should have some structure,guilt trip or doing something.

I am fortunate i have got to this point where i have the freedom to choose nothing,just be.