I have been a solitary druid practioner for 20 years, and so often when I speak of this and my love for the Goddess, I am misunderstood by even close friends. So I empathize with your situation. I think we are working through a lot of barriers on earth just now, and my inner druid guides tell me that unhappy situations are reflecting some past life issue and to go inside and heal that and keep walking, that a joyful partnership will one day arrive. May it be so for you! Blessed be.