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To be honest Lazarus I felt the same but I wanted so badly for him to be free of all his problems and I suppose he is now.
I just kept waiting and hoping for the day he would be free of ringworm and I could hold him to my face and kiss him and cuddle him and show him what a wonderful love was waiting for him. I kept imagining the day someone would come and take him and he would go to a home and finally feel safe.
I spent everyday with him for over six months and I watched this wonderful little character form from this tiny scared little shell and watched him let me into his world and accept me.
Everything he had been through I wanted him to have his happy ending but he never got it and I couldn't be there for him in his last moments and tell him it would be okay.
But when I saw he couldn't use his legs I knew really that he wasn't living the life he would have wanted to live and now his suffering has finally ended but he really has left a space in me.
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