Something must be stirring with TF... We've been communicating like "normal" for five days now. He's waiting til last thing at night or first thing in am to communicate - which is when he's on my mind the most.

This week I've succumb to truly believing we are Eternally connected (told him so) & no matter what decisions or choices he makes, I will unconditionally love him regardless. Instead of sensing my fear, I think he sees that my life is moving ahead with or without him. I've been speaking to him as if we will not be physically together in this lifetime - at least not until we're elderly. In fact, I can't even fathom that for years to come if ever! However, I've said things like, "my life is half over, so I will not apologize or hold back how I feel" and "if you die first, I will know what it's like to die of a broken heart". I even sent him this in a picture quote: “If I am never to have you again after this night, this moment, you will remain the wife of my soul. Keeper of my heart.”
― Penelope Williamson, A Wild Yearning

And know what? Instead of running, he is opening up to me more - just as he did in the beginning the day after I told him I love him. Maybe the difference is that my faith in our connection is stronger than ever? Or that when I think of his family I send them all love instead of feeling jealous? Not sure, but I feel really good & wanting to spread love & joy to everyone. I've always done that, but when TF is in my life my son ask, "why are you always smiling?" I thank God our connection gave me courage to finally leave my marriage & set my ex & I free from the feeling of being completely stuck. Progress. :)