Condolences, PurpleMist...
For me, I do not perceive that my loved one is 'gone' (which carries a sense of permanence to it), but rather I choose to perceive that she is simply physically 'away' from me for the time being (a temporary period of time)... Though you remain tethered through the heart-based connection that you share.
We are all going to make that same natural transition one day - but we cannot force it and must allow for our time to come...
Lots of positive energy coming your way.
~
WOLF