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Originally Posted by Michelle11
I, of course, cannot say with certainty that your impressions of what is going on are not correct. We do have to follow our gut on things as that is our truth center but I am still inclined to feel that these messages are meant to help not hurt you. I have the same thing happen to me. It started out as song lyrics popping up in my head now I am getting groups of phrases that pop up out of the blue that don't feel like they come from my thinking brain. Some of them can be very odd. I don't always figure them out but some of the ones I have had, have been really interesting. the other day I got the phrases, Pig Galaxy and then Flying Debris. Very odd phrases that seem like complete nonsense. Not soon after that I fell to sleep on the couch and woke up a couple of hours later to find my dog chewing on a medicine bottle. I wondered where she got it, took it away and she then immediately bolted upstairs. I went up there to find that she had gotten into a toiletries bag and tore through it with little bits of chew up contents strewn all over the floor. Needless to say some of it was medicine pill packs so we had to take her to the vet but it was a warning. I don't know I could have sorted it out but I do take it as it was meant to be a heads up.
So with that I feel like we can look at what you have been receiving as a message as well. I tend to like to look at things from a symbolic perspective. This includes names. Each name means something and so I usually will look it up for clues. I have also noticed, as I have been working through some depression, that we have many sides to us. Different aspects and personality traits that don't always work in balance. And even parts of us that work against us. I have found that usually those parts that work against us are born from misguided ideas and beliefs we picked up along the way from possibly well meaning but misguided humans we have encountered regardless if it is parents, friends or the media.
So looking at your messages I know the one about making Stephen angry was a bit unnerving to you because you were inclined to think you were upsetting Jesus since Stephen means crowned one. That may be possibly but in my view, Jesus is unconditional love and so he would never get angry at anyone. He has immense compassion for all humans so much so he died for them all. So if it isn’t Jesus the name could have been pointing towards something else. Crowned one could mean the ruling one. The one who governs over the kingdom. So the part of you that is in charge of the rules you live by.
We all create rules we live by whether they are conscious or subconscious. Ideas about how we think life should be and how we should perform or behave. Sometimes these rules are unrealistic but we buy into them because our parents or friends bought into them and we think that is how life is supposed to be. It isn’t necessarily the truth. Why I think this is the case with your messages is that you again got another name, Eric that is angry. Eric as well means Noble ruler. This suggests to me that there is a part of you that feels you must be noble and follow some sort of code to the letter or else. Or else what is hidden in the other phrases. Nick spoils specifically. Nick means victorious people and he is spoiling things, or spoiling the party which could mean that there is some idea in your head that if you aren’t victorious that may mean you are a loser. If you fail at something, don’t do well, aren’t perfect, act poorly, or any number of things that you feel you should live up to you may start to point a finger at yourself, accuse yourself of all sort of wrong doing and believe you should suicide. Or the upset that comes of being hyper critical of yourself may lead you to feel suicidal. I am not suggesting that you are suicidal but I know from experience that it can come in subtle ways without our really being conscious of it. A feeling of wanting to run away from life, a feeling of wanting to escape may be a subtle red flag that our subconscious is a bit stuck on how to sort itself out and is looking to escape life.
So we look to the first phrase and see the possible crux of it all. Neil means champion, diamonds are highly valuable so the gamble for you (lottery) that is your challenge in life (mountain) is to break past the idea that your worth (diamond) is tied into being a champion (neil). When we look at life this way our ruler side can get pretty upset and angry if we aren’t living up to that expectation which is usually too high. Instead, spirit is asking that you have faith in yourself, see yourself as innocent and worthy of love. The rest I believe points towards you trying to become more conscious of your emotions, (rainbow) because that is when our ruler side takes over and can lead us down dark paths that can spiral into feeling suicidal because we feel diminished (unworthy) as a person. Many people aren’t taught to work with their emotions but they really are there to help give us a heads up to pay attention to our thinking. The negative ones especially can help us uncover our limiting beliefs that keep us stuck in repeating defeating and even destructive patterns. So overall, I see the messages as a sign that you need to give yourself a break, see yourself in an innocent light and shift away from the thinking style that says there are winners and losers in life. There aren’t. No one is better because they got first place and no one is less worthy because they came in last. That is a man made idea that was born from a desire to have high aspirations but when it is misused it can be very damaging to our self image. It is definitely a common belief system but one that doesn’t serve our higher good. So if any of this resonates with you just try and find new ways to define who you are and where your worth lies. It will liberate you.
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