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Originally Posted by Vinayaka
I think first impressions, if they're strong, can only be explained as carryover from a previous lifetime. When I first saw Nataraja, (not a picture) it was like my path was already chosen, right then and there, no hesitation, no decision, just Bingo, I'm home. Only later did I find he is at the very core of Saiva Siddhantam, dancing his eternal dance in the great hall. It was meant to be. There is no turning back.
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Yes, precisely! That's why I always say that Shiva chose
me and not vice versa.
As for Shaiva Siddhanta and the other schools, I just got through reading the Shaiva Agamas (again) and the Thirumurai, but there will be times I will also study the Lingayat Vachanas, times where I'll just read the works of Abhinavagupta, times where I'll get lost in the Spandanirṇaya, times where I will just go and watch the Shiva Purana again (for the dozenth time) or study the Tantras and the Trika school offerings, or do the Aghori ceremonies.
I wish I could just stick to one, but all of the schools have worth, merit and all worship Shiva in different ways and I like
all the ways!
However, ever since I saw that photo above, some 40 years ago now, I couldn't stop staring at it. I knew...I just
knew that I was 'home'....I was 'His'.
Aum Namah Shivaya