Good morning Patrycia

I'm doing OK thanks. Just finished a week off and spent pretty much all of it an my backside lol. Got my new computer up and running so that's even better.


The wind's been howling almost for a week now and today it's finally stopped, but yes, winter is here now almost but you're off to Australia on your own I'm afraid. I like the changing of the seasons and what comes with them. There's nothing quite like that feeling when you come home to a warm house and a cuppa's waiting for you. It's like a metaphor for Life.


Sometimes what you're connecting to doesn't translate too well, most of the time you can say "Well I feel..." but sometimes there just isn't the words and the need to express them isn't there neither. Sometimes it just feels as it feels, and there's quite a few understandings in that.

The colour gold is something I thought might have come through from that 'other Life' and I get the feeling it's kind of hovering in the background with you. Obviously either not the time or not meant to be at all perhaps, but the 'influences' are there just the same. If you did resonate with it I don't it would be good, but that's a different story.

The box is a container and gold is the highest Spiritual colour/material, which is why gold is so revered. As minerals go it's pretty abundant no it's not as though it's any kind of rare, and there are far rarer metals out there. Many cultures have associated gold with their religions across the globe and history. Similarly with the Shining Ones, they've been around in folklore since the most ancient of times - which is where the word angels come from.


There's something called the collective subconsciousness which came from Jung - and it's why Spiritual people are afraid of the dark. Certain avatars as they are known have been imprinted into the collective subconsciousness, and they affect us at a very deep level and we don't even realise it. Angels, fairies and butterflies are avatars and even for people who have no interest in Spirituality they still represent something deeply Spiritual.


The box was a gift for you.


With any energetic changes it's usually best to not rock the boat so much as you've found out. They often need a little time for the symptoms to dissipate, and often the best way to do that is to do something 'normal' - like get the polish and duster out.



I don't know why but lately I've had this 'thing' about words, their meanings and how they affect someone's reality - your reality is defined by your definitions and words have power over you so it's often best to choose carefully.I know I shouldn't but at times I just have to. It's just that 'crisis' is a strong word that comes from a certain mentality, when really it's a natural part of the progression. While it might not be fun it's necessary.


On a lighter note I'd be careful with the Fibonacci sequence, you did know Trump's head and hairdo conforms to the sequence? I kid you not. The sequence is the basis for the Phi Spiral and the Golden Mean, which is into Sacred Geometry territory and if you're getting it right then you're resonating with that level of consciousness. It's also relevant to your Path because of the spiral. We don't actually walk in a straight, linear fashion - in a more picturesque Spirituality - we walk in a spiral that both extends upwards and outwards at the same time, encompassing and rising as we traverse it. This is why we often have the past coming back into our Lives and it feels as though we're back at 'Square One'. What's actually happening is that we've walked the spiral and we can observe something from both an elevated position and different perspective.

It really doesn't matter if you're going to be an aficionado of Sacred Geometry or not, what does matter is that your synchronising with the Universe on a different level. If you use the Phi Spiral as a visualisation it'll help you understand.



I have no idea why but for some reason there's a need for you to recognise how far you've come right now, it's a metaphorical going over your notes and noting the progress you've made to date. It's not going to stop the progress in any way but I think you're on a plateau where you need to catch your breath a little. So with a little synchronicity this is where your Phi Spiral visualisation would be a good tool. Retrospect is a good tool to, and to realise how much you're come in 13 years isn't ego but acknowledgement.


It's about enlightenment and ascension, so you are en-lightning yourself to ascend to a new vibration of existence and en-lightening yourself of what holds you back. There is a saying - "If you want to understand Spirit you have to think like Spirit." You 'talking to Matt' is your subconsciousness' way of telling you that you're thinking more like Spirit. If you think about it you'll see that plastered across almost every word in this - and a few before - post.


The Matt in your dream is a representation of what you consider as a level of Spirituality and talking/voice is vibration, so you're vibrating at his level. How well/equal the conversation went is how well you vibrate at the same level as him. Trying to tell him about the intensity of the terror is you trying to express it at that level, or understand it at that level. The two are very different vibrations.


The misty people at your side represents two things. The white one is the healing process that you are aware of, and the black one is the process you don't know of. If the black/unknown presence is on your right, that means its the most dominant/strongest aspect of your healing. They are both you but 'reside' in different parts of yourself. Sometimes the black/dark side of us is known as the Shadow Self, and that's where all the stuff that we can't or won't deal with goes.


Well there goes your black and white, both surprising and not surprising. Actually it never gets old, it just gets crazier.


There's really no way to describe the feeling but to try it feels more like a power than an emotion. Often emotions can be put down to electro-chemical reactions but this is in a whole new ball-park. It can knock me on my backside sometimes but to be able to feel it at all is amazing.

There are actually scientific explanations for what Matt does, and they come from a Nobel Prize-winning physicist. The human brain is already quantum-entangled with the probability field so that would explain what Matt is doing - the drawing from the 'database' or Akashic Records. By the way he talks I don't think he actually started off as being very knowledgeable and sometimes he comes across as being as human as everyone else. Other than his abilities of course. Matt receives downloads, mediums get their information on the fly and intuitive people just know, it's really different ways of tapping into the same source and expressing it.

OK, try something with your friend. The next time you talk to her concentrate on your voice and less on the words themselves. In your mind, think that your intention is to send her your vibrations in a way that will assist her to vibrate at the same level. The problem might not be her understanding but her level of vibration, and once you raise her vibrations what you're trying to tell her will come automatically to her. What you then need to look out for is not what she says but how she says it, because her interpretations and yours will be very different. By the way, there's a reason for this behind the mask.

It's all progress and no real conclusions, except where you catch your breath for a few moments. And you're very welcome. This is the main reason why you're friend is here, so you have a dichotomy or contrast to think about. By the way, you are not trying to make him/her into 5D you're trying to bring 5D into her/him. Very different. It's about their awakening, and yours. You know how it feels to be them.

Not so much a neck of the woods here but a barren wasteland. Being honest I dan't really thought about it but perhaps it's worth at try. A couple of years back I wanted to get into Reiki because I wanted to know if I had what it takes more than anything. That turned out to be a non-starter for a few reasons. Perhaps if this is a 'meant to be' time then it's worth a try.

I've had to tell my line manager about this and she's freaked, quite honestly. She's sitting there expecting me to be morbid because in her eyes I may be looking at a death sentence, and I'm sitting have a right old laugh about it. I can't do much about how people will react if I pop my clogs, they have their own Paths to tread and there's really little I can do about it. My daughters will be in pieces and the grandkids my not really understand because they're too young. My mother I din't know about though, she might not be able to handle losing both me and my dad in this Lifetime, but her dementia might play a dissociative part. With everyone else Life will go on, I just feel there's a cutting of ties going on right now.

I've told very few people because what I don't want is sympathy, frankly that would drive me crazy. I haven't told my mother as yet but either way she'll need to be told. It wouldn't do if Mrs G went up to her one day and told her that her son had gone. She's psychic and usually she would have picked up on this already, so far she hasn't and I can't help but wonder what the reason is.


To be honest I'm still processing that it's there and how I feel about it. I can't deal with anything until it's here to deal with so just right now there's little point in coming to any decisions about possible treatments. I appreciate what you're saying but that's how I get through Life, because that way I can meet it with a clearer head. I'm going to have an explore with faith healers and even sources of medical marijuana, because that sound like a jolly plan but other than that.... It might be that they shove a tube up my nose and suck the little sod right out. Or I could go into convulsions at work while a scary creature fights its way out of me.


I haven't asked my Guides being honest, it's not often that they come to me but that isn't a bad thing. I feel the same thing here, that this Journey is all mine and not for anyone else to influence in any way. Mrs G's been in bits because of the Past Lives connections but that just doesn't affect me in any way. It's one helluva place to be in right now because there's so much going on in my head and all of it is OK. For most people this would be a curse, for me it's one of the greatest gifts.