[Native spirit]

Hi GerryGirl,

Well you have written a lot what i see is what i have seen and heard before, you are not alone in feeling like you do that you have all the rubbish whilst others get everything,
you suffer while other have the joy.going back home to spirit is not going to solve your problems,you will leave a small son with disabilities to what he needs you.
im not sure on the benefit system in nz.so i cant advise you but im sure you have a citizens advise there or similar, they can advise you where you can get help from,
if your boarders arent paying you much raise your prices,
i can feel your frustration in what you have written
have you been to see your gp maybe they can help. there has to be help out there for you somewhere,
if your ex husband isnt helping you go back to the courts they cant get blood from a stone
i would advise you to speak with someone who can help you

Namaste