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As I am quite feminine woman, I tend to attract the masculine guys. And all the masculine guys that I am attracting tend to have a blockage towards me. Actually I don't want to say masculine - feminine, but in that case that you could understand better. The ones who are like macho type of guys tend to have emotional problems...and in some ways they are not very talkative about it either...So even if I am only friend to them I might get hurt by their actions as they sometimes act like kids.
I want to remove that blockage in me. Its true woman want to be in the center of attention and it causes me a lot of pain to not being able to talk about feelings and talk about worries and such. I think that they might me frightened of me. All the guys know that I tend to talk a lot and I think its easy to fall in love with me as I am generous and kind and loving person. It causes me a real deep hurt, that I cannot help them to deal with their emotions ... even in some ways. Don't get me wrong, I don't want a person to force to be opened with me, its not my point, I just see my potential .. of being the helper... and just looking as they get hurt from other people, from situations.. I am just an observer.