Well the closest one can get to the source of the buddhist teachings for free on-line is here I guess.
http://www.accesstoinsight.org/
Those are the closest one can get to translations of the original earliest written down teachings..
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The Tipitaka (Pali ti, "three," + pitaka, "baskets"), or Pali canon, is the collection of primary Pali language texts which form the doctrinal foundation of Theravada Buddhism. The Tipitaka and the paracanonical Pali texts (commentaries, chronicles, etc.) together constitute the complete body of classical Theravada texts.
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That said start a meditation practice.
Either samatha or vipassana. whatever feels right for you now. Preferably by an acclompished teacher.
You may wander over to and read mastering the core teachings of the buddha. Which is found here..
https://www.dharmaoverground.org/web...411_title=MCTB
If you gain some momentum. Let buddhism go..
It's just a phase
With Love