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Hi Sunset Dragon,
If I may..
Much of what you are talking about is normal.
What I would suggest is you start by relaxing your body, from your toes up to the top of your head, just start by going body part by body part slowly and relax the body.
Once you have relaxed the body, stay with it. If you notice any tension in your body just put your awareness there and relax that body part.
If focusing on your breath is to much try focusing on the rise and fall of your belly.
If saliva, or thoughts intrude, this is normal and it will get easier over time.
What happens is you will focus on your belly/breath and then you will notice you are lost in thoughts.
That is normal.
Just gently go back to observing your belly/breath.
That space between you focusing on your belly/breath and getting caught up in thoughts is silence. Over time that silence will grow and grow.
Everything you are experiencing is normal, don't over think it. Know the brain wants to fight silence, it is all normal. Just focus on the belly, get lost in thoughts, return to focusing on the belly over and over again.
I hope this helps,
Tom
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