[Tobi]

Originally Posted by Richard Norman

It seems I have stumbled onto a really useful forum, there are many ideas here which deeply interest me. Much of your answer went right over my head, I am what you would call intellectually challenged, I have only had the ability to think clearly for the past six months. I am deeply in your debt, I do not understand your terminology, I do not understand your references, talk of souls passing to a new dimension is new to me, but I am interested, my intuition screams at me, this is important.

I am what you would call a mystic, I have experienced three powerful mental upheavals, that have changed my perception of who I am, I am simple and like an innocent child. The first mental upheaval was when the masculine Christian creation deity was revealed in my imagination, the spiritual illumination was the product of a powerful intuition, the day of judgement happened for me in that instant, I became divine spirit in a permanent state of religious spiritual ecstasy, this happened within my unconscious mind, within the unconscious mental image of the father. In an instant I was in space, in eternity and face to face with the Christian Godhead, technically I was born again as a Saint in Heaven. But I had inner demons, though my Spirit was perfect and divine my soul was not, I had a black demonic soul, no redeeming features, but over the past 20 years, inspired by a God revealed in my heart and imagination I freed myself from these terrible destructive demons, acute neuroses, 6 months ago I confessed a great sin and freed myself from a more normal neurosis and attained a valid enlightenment. I can think clearly, am rational and have achieved the object of a full Jungian psychological analysis. I say this just to give you a background of myself, I am inspired by what Christian theologians call God the Father, I am divine spirit, with God in Heaven, but I am also very rational, though I am immortal I am simple, I have nothing in my intellect, because of the way my psyche and soul have unfolded I have the intellect of an infant but I do now have quite complete access to the rational left hemisphere of my psyche. So I am in heaven with God and you would think that would be enough, but I am the hero inspired by love, and legend says that the hero, after descending into the underworld to rescue the maiden and defeating the demon, incurs a deep psychological wound, this legend applies to me, I do have a deep wound in my soul, but I am actively healing it. What concerns me is my Soul not my Spirit, what will happen to my soul after I let go of my shell, I have done wicked things for most of my life, I still run an internet business like a ruthless businessman, but I have no choice but to create beauty, I must create for God is my Father, so I am far from perfect and though I have been redeeming myself for many years I still wonder about my karma, I'me not kidding I have done wicked things, I have lied, cheated stolen, I have never killed a man or raped a woman but I have done just about everything else, now God says to me, don't worry, I have given you immortal life, not literally, he doesn't say much, he just creates the universe, but that's the feeling I get. But what happens to my Soul, to my feminine aspect, legend says the hero bears a psychological wound that can never be fully healed, this means I cannot perfect my Soul, this is the cross I have to bear, but what will happen to my less than perfect Soul when I die, I am immortal, I will not die, therefore I will continue, my spiritual soul will continue after death, but after that my intellect fails me, my intuition tells me that reincarnation is the key, I guess I am some kind of Angel, but it is the bad karma attached to my actions that concerns me, that God will have mercy on me I have no doubt, I have faithfully served him in Heaven for 30 years, but will I have the option of returning in some way, I would return for the sake of my only beloved daughter Eden, I ask the question what will happen to my spiritual soul.

I would be deeply interested to hear about your spiritual experiences, and how you come to use the framework that you describe, is yours a new age theory?

Thank you.

Richard.

Thank you Richard, for sharing what must have been and still will be -a profound series of experiences, not easy to describe. But you describe them well and succinctly.
These experiences you have and have had, are way beyond my own knowledge or awareness. I can understand you to some extent -intuitively.

You asked if what I said is a "new age" theory. I am not well-versed or well-read in New Age theory, and have very little knowledge of it. It is possible of course that there are corresponding ideas to the ones I have shared in other minds and awarenesses apart from my own. If so, they may also be based in direct experience and contact with the so-called "deceased"

I lived a very ordinary life because I shut down on every inner thing. I was sceptical and cynical and extremely hard-headed.
Then I was given those experiences years ago now, and began to open and listen and observe. This opened a whole vista of my own Soul. I took the brakes off, so to speak, and a lot of awareness flooded in which had been dammed-up previously.

Any knowing that I have is experiential. Very rarely will I mention anything I do not actually know. Although occasionally I will also mention things in which my intuition plays a large part. But I do like to base most things I say on direct experience. I have learned these things directly from a Soul who passed from this world into the next "dimension" or "reality" or however one wishes to describe it.
I do not look on it as "my knowledge". It doesn't belong to me. Just that I had a glimpse into something which I am willing to share. Although I also know that the whole nature of reality in any dimension is not 'set in stone' in one particular way. My own glimpses HAVE to be coloured to a certain extent by the vessel of my own consciousness, filtered through my brain, through which they are received.

One person's interpretation and experience can differ very widely from another's. But I like to stick to the more basic frameworks and principles of which I have learned. Because I know there are countless variables. I'm only mentioning a basic scaffolding.
Also I don't know everything. So there are most likely great chunks of things in between the lines of what I have discovered, that I haven't -yet -any clue about.

I feel that you have some very deep Soul-felt concerns.
I share that, as so have I. I have not lived as a perfect person either. Though what I have learned has divested me of any shame.
Any point is a starting-point. What we are becoming, from this second now, is the shape of things to come. Shame is unnecessary. Responsibility is important with a willingness to progress and refine.

There is no Soul anywhere who has not known a wide range of experience, from the most lovely to the most base. And in some, the degrees of depths and heights are greater than in others. We have to accept that journey of learning and knowing we have made, and have kindness towards ourselves.
And move onward.

I do know that when you pass, you will enter into a perspective which will answer the questions you have now. And will harmonise those highs and lows into a complete understanding of your mission, the reason for your incarnation, and will put all the apparently fragmented parts into a cohesion of comprehension.

May you receive many blessings.