Hello !

I, for one, really like the way it is. I totally understand why you feel like you're following some sort of script. I certainly do at times ! But nethertheless, I doesn't bother me one bit. Still, I'm a very free will person, I do what I want when I want, when I'm asked a piece of advice, I give my take on the situation/problem and tell the person to go from there to take a decision.

Don't worry, you're far from being the only one questionning. I do too at times even if I'm totally comfortable knowing things as I need them. Questionning is also a big part of growing after all ! Destiny or plan or whatever you want to call it, in my opinion is to take you specifically to specific conditions in your life or a situation, and then free will comes into play.

Just my opinion, hope it helps ! :)