Hi windwhistle,
I'm always drawn to your posts, although I'm going through a less active phase myself so perhaps don't often reply.
Firstly I love your writing style, I see you are very open and expressive.
My heart goes out to you and your husband, and as you say something positive often seems to come out of bad situations although it's difficult to find a positive here for you with this one.
I was personally an mj smoker for a long time but found in the end it was making me feel paranoid and so was contributing to anxiety rather than helping and I quit.
Just to say I love you and don't go anywhere really.
