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Originally Posted by Rememoration
Well, that goes hand in hand with the issue I've recently found myself having.
I feel enlightened , I feel pleasure in being enlightened. But what I could do then, I can't do now.
I try to remember how it felt, to be aware of me .
I used to also explain it as, being one alone in the universe.
As if I wasn't me looking through my eyes, as if I was a watcher.
Hm, it's hard to explain. It's like I wasn't aware of anything but being aware of everything?... UGH.
As if I was just perceiving things, only perceiving things.
I try now, and I can't seem to get that feeling anymore.
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"As if I wasn't me looking through my eyes, as if I was a watcher."
Which is what i have called it. It does not have names for things. It does not have values for things, it does not recognise, things as things, it is not aware of a place it is, nor a thing it is.
You need not try to get that feeling, it hasn't left. When you are quiet in musing moment or relaxed you will find there is a slow but sure thinning perception of what is called external/object/experience. It doesn't have the 'truth' it used to have. The brilliance that underlies it becomes more apparent.
And saying that, just now i understand why.
It does not disappear over the horizen Rememoration, it integrates, and then reclaims by default.