I can see a natural progression of learning. First on a secular level and then as you pondered on it your spiritual side began to awaken unbeknownst to you on a subconscious level. And when that happened you started connecting the dots. Once that began, you saw ufology in a different light. Going back you can interpret it all differently.
Now you have opened a whole different aspect with the mediums, psychics, etc. It's called growth.
Once we venture out on our own from mainstream thinking onto our "individual spiritual path" things can become mighty lonely. Trying to strike up a conversation with (normal) friends will be discouraging. They just aren't there yet. Same as you were before you began to awaken.
SF is where a lot of us come to 'talk' because we have no other outlet for the squirrel running around in our heads. Welcome to my world.
